LOOK WITH KIND EYES
Life is a bit up and down at the moment and my emotions are all over the place. On the one hand I am so excited because I am going to be a grandma to a beautiful baby boy on or about the 8th September 2025. Actually he looks a bit odd rather than beautiful at the moment because I have only seen a scan thus far. On the other hand I am really not myself and whilst I know things always get better, I’m not there yet. Please don’t worry that your children are in any danger because they are still the lights that make me smile every day and I will guard them as if they are my own. I am simply human.
I took part in a online meeting yesterday where two headteachers were talking about their journey as part of the LGBTQ community. They both had very different experiences both positive and negative but the thing that touched me the most was the phrase ‘look with kind eyes’. These are all words with just four letters, sixteen in total, but I think they pack such a punch. As everyone knows we like to achieve happily together and support each other at all times. The children were so supportive when I was trying to hoola hoop in assembly the other day and actually clapped at my attempt. The little year 2 girl who was teaching me was amazing. We talk to the children about gratitude and kindness and part of not being myself is I wasn’t as kind as I could be and I didn’t show gratitude at all. I apologised straight away because I will always admit when I am wrong. If only I had looked with kind eyes.
No-one is perfect as we all know and we all make mistakes. Some mistakes can be whoppers and some can be small. Saying sorry and trying not to repeat the mistakes is the best course of action. See, I could say again ‘look with kind eyes’ on the mistakes that either yourself or someone else makes. If we keep repeating the mistakes that becomes a problem but by helping each other there is always a way forward.
Back to being a grandma. Did I tell you I am going to be a grandma? As a mum to a wonderful daughter who was thinking she too would have a daughter, we are getting used to saying he but it felt strange at first. She will be an amazing mum and I have to say I will be a fabulous grandma but I know we won’t always get it right. Without a shadow of a doubt though he will absolutely be looked at with kind eyes. I simply can’t wait. He is also going to have lots of cardigans and jumpers because I am knitting as if my life depends on it!
I am going to try to look at MR O with kind eyes this weekend and when he can’t operate the TV buttons I will be loveliness personified and help even though I might need to put down my knitting.